I was exactly were you were. I drank a lot and couldn't stop. I have a child and I'm a single mom plus I have a stressful full time job. I had many attempts and got 12 or 13 days even sober several times. It never lasted. I finally found an out patient program that was available after work and I begged a friend to help me with child care. It really helped me. I'm 78 days sober now. Imagine how much better your child's life will be if you were sober. You would be available to be there for them instead of out with strangers and risking your child's stability. Anyway I got sober for my child and her life is 100% better. That makes me so happy. You can have that too.