Hope
When I wanted to get sober I had to actively seek support.I had no friends,because I only hung out with other drug addicts , my family had long since stopped supporting me and no longer believed there was recovery for me.What did I do? I got off the pity pot and found a support group,reached out to people and have made some great friends in recovery.Everyday I woke up and didnt use the night before I was grateful.Grateful that I wasnt up all night chasing a high that wasnt a high,grateful that I wasnt tired and wired,that I wasnt 95 lbs with my hair falling out from malnutrition.
Using does not take away lonliness or pain.My disease will tell me it does.Nothing could be further from the truth.When I sit on the pity pot the only thing I get is a ring around my a$$.