Really good advice from everyone in this thread - I know for me when I read through the Big Book the first time I alternated between laughing and crying because the problem I thought was SO bad and SO unique to me turned out to be run of the mill alcoholism. You're not bad, you're ill, and there is a solution. Hit a meeting, ask for a Big Book (they will give you one if you can't afford it) and you are truly on to a new way of life. Like someone else said, you don't have to live this way - God bless
