I typical drink uncontrollably for 2-3 days & return to sobriety
That is what was happening to me as well in the last 12 months. I have been attempting to get and stay sober for over 4 years.
This has to be some weird as.d deprivation thing or fit in as much as you can quickly so I can get back into a sobriety cycle.
In the last 12 months I had worked out I couldn't moderate by having 2 or 3 drinks an evening so it had become 3 days heavy drinking, sobriety for 1, 2 or 3 weeks then back to drinking as much as I can for a few days.... Have I got rocks in my head....that is hard hard work. ...far easier to just not drink.