Originally Posted by
Cynderino 
I know for me the tie in this to my drinking is that I have always, always put others needs before my own. And I rewarded myself handsomely in wine/beer for those sacrifices. I hated myself at the end of my drinking. Like, look in the mirror and cringe kind of hate. It's hard to undo that kind of damage. Years and years of thinking I am the biggest piece of **** around.
Dang if this doesn't speak to me (and, I suppose, to a lot of us). Do, do, do for others, and then "do" whatever we can to make up for it. Something's wacky there. And I'm still trying to figure it out!
Fishy