mlorenc7,
would you be comfortable starting a thread on this just below on the regular mental health forum?
Right now your post is part of a "sticky" and will not get read by as many people, and I think your issue is important and will benefit by being part of a discussion.
I have experience with self harm. I am also bi-polar.
Tylenol PM will destroy your liver. There are safer sleep meds, both Rx and over the counter. Please stop using the Tylenol PM today.
Are you on medication for your depression/bi-polar?
Which 12 step program are you a part of?
Do you engage in self harm other than the use of this medication?
I'm glad you came here with your situation, and hope that discussing it will bring clarity and relief.
(((((hugs)))))