Thanks again to everyone for your kind words and encouragement. I feel a lot more clear headed this morning after a bit of quite a bit of sleep.
Talked with my boss last night and he said I can at least work until I go to court in a month. at that time we can re-assess the situation. I think he is willing to work things out so that I can stay on no matter what, like take a pay cut, and demoted to helper status or something. It is something...taking a pay cut is way better than collecting no pay at all.
I will be checking in often throughout the day on my phone. Gonna try to stay more active on the forums and definitely start hitting AA meetings (when I get my truck back). 90 in 90 is on my horizon I think.