Sneaky....
Started day 2 today and after a fairly easy day yesterday (easy to quit hung over) and being completely committed I found myself imagining things like 'if I just make it two weeks to the super bowl I will be strong enough to handle just two' OR even defending my last day of drinking 'it was the NFC Championship game, I deserved to have fun that day'.... all these tiny excuses keep sneaking their way into my thoughts. 'if I work out and stay healthy all week, then it won't be a big deal to go to our weekly bar night on Friday.. just for 1'.....
I don't feel like drinking right now and am not craving alcohol today and I feel great, but these damn excuses keep slipping in at random times for no reason.
Feels like this addiction of mine is trying to lay low for a while and send me some subtle messages so that when I have an opportunity, all the excuses will be pre programmed. But I'm on to you addiction....