Jupiter,
i do hope you make a call to find a meeting. Sounds like you've got the first step down. I to was on the verge of losing everything. Everything has turned around in th past 5 and a half years for me. I can't believe how good it is for me today.
Try going back to AA. What have you got to lose. There's millions of us in the progarm. I figure someone must know something
stay in touch
chris