I've had many low moments as an active alcoholic. This past summer may have been the topper.
I was drinking regularly and spending time with a male friend reconnected with through facebook. It wasn't a sexual daliance, but affairs of the heart cut deep. At one point, I left the night before my husband's knee surgery and wasn't there for him the day of. My oldest daughter & mother took on the responsibility that I abandoned.
When I came home later that day my husband wanted me to listen to a song that we both were familar with, but he added, "have you ever really listened to the lyrics?". Tears fell and he played the song for me [on youtube]. He told me he had never felt worse since the time our oldest daughter was in the ICU [at MGH for traumatic brain injury in 2010 after being hit by a car in front of our house].
"like a drum my heart never stops beating ... for you".
"Give me reasons to believe
That you would do the same for me."
Please take a moment to read the lyrics or watch the video with lyrics ...
"Gone, Gone, Gone"
When life leaves you high and dry
I'll be at your door tonight
If you need help, if you need help.
I'll shut down the city lights,
I'll lie, cheat, I'll beg and bribe
To make you well, to make you well.
When enemies are at your door
I'll carry you away from war
If you need help, if you need help.
Your hope dangling by a string
I'll share in your suffering
To make you well, to make you well.
Give me reasons to believe
That you would do the same for me.
And I would do it for you, for you.
Baby, I'm not moving on
I love you long after you're gone.
For you, for you.
You will never sleep alone.
I love you long after you're gone
And long after you're gone, gone, gone.
When you fall like a statue
I'm gon' be there to catch you
Put you on your feet, you on your feet.
And if your well is empty
Not a thing will prevent me.
Tell me what you need, what do you need?
I surrender honestly.
You've always done the same for me.
So I would do it for you, for you.
Baby, I'm not moving on,
I love you long after you're gone.
For you, for you.
You will never sleep alone.
I love you long after you're gone
And long after you're gone, gone, gone.
You're my back bone.
You're my cornerstone.
You're my crutch when my legs stop moving.
You're my head start.
You're my rugged heart.
You're the pulse that I've always needed.
Like a drum, baby, don't stop beating.
Like a drum, baby, don't stop beating.
Like a drum, baby, don't stop beating.
Like a drum my heart never stops beating...
For you, for you.
Baby, I'm not moving on.
I love you long after you're gone.
For you, for you.
You will never sleep alone.
I love you long after you're gone.
For you, for you.
Baby, I'm not moving on,
I love you long after you're gone.
For you, for you.
You will never sleep alone.
I love you long, long after you're gone.
Like a drum, baby, don't stop beating.
Like a drum, baby, don't stop beating.
Like a drum, baby, don't stop beating.
Like a drum my heart never stops beating for you.
And long after you're gone, gone, gone.
I love you long after you're gone, gone, gone.
Phillip Phillips - Gone Gone Gone Lyric Video - YouTube