Hello, Jupiter2, and welcome!
Sound like you are ready for a change. Everything you said seems to indicate that -- that you really want to get sober and stay sober. Amen to that, my friend, and welcome.
I have found so many wonderful and welcoming people here. Plus, these forums have helped me to maintain a connection with people on day when I don't have recovery meetings. I hope you find the same here.
Keep that connection going. Go to those meetings and keep posting here.
Welcome!
Oh, and I'm ChrisMan, recovering addict.