Laura, I'd give anything to go back and be as self aware as you are. At 25 I refused to admit that every time alcohol was in my system I was in danger. I kept insisting I could manage it and continued - with disastrous results - into my 50's.
Finding SR and opening up to others was the best thing I could have done. In my heart I knew it was destroying me - but I was so afraid to let go of it. I look back now and don't know what I was afraid of. Life is so much happier - filled with joy and hope. No more living in a numbed-out fog. I'm so glad you found us and are getting free.
