End of week 1
I'm at the end of week 1 and it's hard. A little voice keeps telling me that I don't really have a problem and that I can have a few drinks tonight like I always do. I feel like I have nothing to look forward to since Friday and Saturday were my drinking and watching shows nights. I'm bored and anxious and don't want to be around my kids or husband but have nowhere else to go.
But, I do know that I really can't have a drink, because in the past couple months I've:
-Puked at my friends house after doing who knows what and waking up with bruises all over my shins (from the stairs I'm assuming)
-Fallen on top of my 18 month old daughter while trying to put her in her bed.
-Puked all day from hangovers
-Missed a morning photo session I had scheduled because I was still drunk from the night before
-Tried to show my friend and her husband my boobs.
Sometimes I really can control it, but then... I can't. I'm sure my story is similar to a lot of moms on here.
K, I sure hope this stays anonymous :P. I might have to change my photos.