Originally Posted by
TigerLili 
I am not in fear of drinking when I feel bad. It's when I feel better and have things to take up my time other than recovery that I forget I'm an alcoholic and think I can drink like everyone else. I'm so scared if I take my eye off the ball for a second that I will find myself drinking again.
I know what you mean; same with me. I didn't drown my sorrows as much as drink from enjoyment. But it still led me to a bad outcome.
Remember that it's perfectly normal to feel bad going back to work after holidays, and the fear and reluctance usually disappears once you start dealing with the backlog.