65 days…
So I've been celebrating all week…
And boy oh boy it's a difference between my first few weeks - The "pink cloud" has passed and I'm feeling more empty and lost then I ever have. I am so not sure if this is usual, as this is the first and longest time I've ever been clean/sober. But this is a low I am also not used to… I don't know if I want to scream, cry, or just walk away… But then again, then I'd just be letting my AV win…
I've been sad smiling and I just pray this will pass...