Originally Posted by
anchorbird 
Thank you everyone for your responses. I know he is disappointed and hurt, I guess I just never thought he would hurt me like that.
Time to put my big girl pants on and start showing him that I can and will change.
I have found that not drinking is absolutely the best thing you can do to heal old wounds. Some never heal and but you will be absolutely amazed at how different ( in a good way ) that your life will be after some serious sober time.