My husband punished me for drinking
I need to get this out, I just do.
The other night I did slip, drank beer, but was able to put it down out of fear of getting drunk. I was completely honest with my husband about it, we even talked about it. Yes, he was disappointed, just as I was in myself.
That night I had a night terror. I have had them in the past due to childhood trauma. I have been treated for PTSD and have learned coping mechanisms, which I try to practice regularly. Anyways, in the past when I have had these terrors I scream and trash around, my husband wakes me up, and holds me to calm me down. The other night when I had one of these episodes he let me go through it, lied there and watched me. I woke up in tears and sweating and he was just looking at me. He said "maybe your friend beer could help you through this."
I know I have caused pain, but this just seems inhumane to me. I don't know how to wrap my head around what he did (or didn't do).