I have come to the understanding that IF I choose to drink again... it will get worse. Each time worse, each time harder to come back from.
I've come to the understanding that my life's greatest moments have been sober and my life's worst - mostly involved alcohol.
I have come to the understanding that I am better able to live a joyous, free, capable, positive life that serves myself and others when I choose to live sober.
I have come to understand that taken together, all of these things make it a no-brainer conclusion that I am better off NEVER drinking again.
Yet the idea of FOREVER sometimes overwhelms and dismays me. Sometimes not. Sometimes it's a promise of a unique, free, strong and joyous path. But sometimes it weighs a little more heavily than others.
At those times, "one day at a time" and just dealing with TODAY is a great fallback.
