I'm glad you are trying to work on your recovery.
For me, it came down to accepting that alcohol was no longer an option, ever. When I accepted that, things began to fall into place. My mind began to find different and healthy ways to deal with life.
I think taking action is essential. Going to meetings is a positive step. Are you making other changes in your life to help you stop drinking? For example, you say you are crave two glasses of wine, probably in the evening? If so, make a plan to be out of your house at that time, and don't keep alcohol in the house. I think that any small change you can make will have a ripple effect on your recovery.