11.53 am 3 months ago
Would have just woken up in between vomiting / dry retching with bone crushing fear and anxiety. Called in sick earlier this morning using some feeble excuse knowing that we are already very short staffed. Paranoid that I would lose my job or people would know I was a drunk. Would get out of bed not being able to stand myself and my thoughts any longer. Would spy a half glass of wine left over from last night on the kitchen bench, all furry with a skin on the top and possibly a few floaters in it. Swish glass around so it looks fresher then down it in one to calm my nerves
1153 today
Lying in bed as I have a cold but planning a menu for 2nd Christmas dinner I am hosting tonight for my nieces and nephews that are visiting from another country. On holiday from new job which has double the salary and more enjoyable. No more sick days, I work late and happily take on new responsibilities. Have been out for breakfast with my husband who has just told me he loves me more than anything in the world
Bliss.