HI Akasha, i used to drink after work every day and on every weekend day. The very first and best thing I did was stop going to my 'local bar.' As I had only one, and all my drinking friends also went there, this was hard at first but easy in results. AA and CBT teach us to avoid the people, places and things that make us want to drink. If you can come to the idea you truly need to quit, without 'hitting bottom,' IE DUI or lost job or any other unerasable external documentation of your drinking, you will be much and better off. You have the reason, your post shows it. You have the fortitude, it is within you, not outside in a bottle or a glass. This is what we all remind ourselves every minute!