Hi- Welcome and I feel for you and the pain you are going through. When I was deep in my addiction unfortunately the only thing I thought of was how I was going to get more alcohol and myself and how I was feeling.
I do agree that Al-Anon may be a good option. They have a 12 step program as well and I've heard it is a great place to vent and be around others to explore how to better take care of yourself. I wish it was that easy to say that one can control an alcoholic and get them to stop but this isn't always the case and will just cause you more frustration in your life to keep trying and beating your head against a brick wall.
My thoughts are with you.