I know that I know all this deep in my heart. I just wish I could get up the courage to follow through with my threats over time. I know he needs help and that he needs to find the strength from within to beat this disease. The first two trips to rehab were mandated by his work. He told me a couple weeks ago he didn't even need to go at all. He says drinking is his outlet, etc. He also blames others for his unhappiness - I can't count the number if times I have been told that it's my fault. He has has DUI, been in fights resulting in injuries and almost lost his job on two occasions - what does it take? I know I am codependent and just as sick as he is. Thanks for your responses - feels good to not be alone 🌹