I have been having more thoughts of drinking or the questioning of if I was ever an alcoholic. Could I one day drink again? I believe this is part of the deprogramming process that is occurring and quite natural, albeit somewhat scary.
I think it is more likely your AV using this window of opportunity with you leaving AA and your conflicted feelings. Since you are doing RR now, remember that the beast is an opportunist. It's probably dancing the Harlem shake in its pjs thinking that you are vulnerable. Whether it's a disease, a beast, alcoholism or the tooth fairy in disguise: whatever it is does not mean YOU any good. Don't let it win.
Interesting thread btw, gave me a headache LOL.