I relapsed enough to know my mind before I was finally committed. Most of my relapses were because 1) I knew I could and didn't care about the consequences 2)Hated my life and was too afraid to face fixing the things that made me hate it. Currently I'm doing AA meetings, SR, books, recovery tapes, & psychiatrist (addiction specialist) - haven't really found the right mix. I think we have to push through a point of sobriety where we are past the "craving" and can move to the "healing" - whatever helps you get to that point is what works for you.