ive gotten to the point where i no longer believe coincidence exists ... furthermore, i can imagine a creation, as insanely detailed, a machine so tuned as this world is - that has no creator ... his roll in our day to day lives - i am unclear about ... but i am willing to believe there is a higher power and that there is some order ... the best i feel i can do is pray for the ability to better understand that plan and order and continue to try and do the next right thing