Recycling. Absolutely. It was unhealthy. I know it. I was proud that I kept away from this person for so long, but I broke down here. No doubt. Her Alcohol issue is but one of the concerns. There is something dangerous about this girl I sense. And that is one of the reasons I did my best to stay away. Whether a combination of her personal issues, impulsivity, beauty, charisma, alcohol and possibly BPD traits, she's the wrong one to fall for. I know I have my own issues that allowed me to fall back in, even if for one evening. I have admitted my feelings for this person to myself now, that there is more going on then I thought. It is actually a little scary and humbling. I still have some work to do. Thank you for your advice.