65 days... It had been 65 days since I had a single drop of alcohol... and then Christmas happened. and I had one glass of wine. and then over the past 12 days or so I was "in control" of my drinking... having only 1-3 drinks, not drinking alone blah blah blah...
and then yesterday.
I had two beers with lunch. and then stopped on the way home to get a six pack so I could have "a couple more" later in the night. which ended up being gone by 9pm, which is when the rest of my bottle of Moscato (sp?) in the fridge started looking good. Only one glass was gone from that and I finished it by 10:30.
AND. I. FEEL. TERRIBLE. TODAY.
Light headed, weak, shaky, heart wants to jump out of my chest. hungover like crazy. but what hurts the most? my pride
I am soooooooooooooo mad and sad with myself. Why am I so weak???