Originally Posted by
nicole100 
I am tired of feeling sick and tired of hurting myself. I can't go to an inpatient rehab again--I would lose my job. And I do not want to tell my family what has been going on because they all think I am doing really well.
Nicole - Sometimes our health needs to be the #1 priority over everything else. I urge you to consider that this may be one such occasion.
Please go to a doctor and be 100% honest about what you've been going through. The doctor can help make a plan for safe detox and for getting the care you need. Don't try and do this on your own.
Also, I cannot recommend enough that you contact your family and be honest with them too. You need help, and they should stand by you and help you in this time of need.
The lying has gone on for way too long. It's time to get honest and reach out for the help you need. There is no shame AT ALL in asking for help.
