Welcome Nicole! You came to the right place, and did the right thing by taking the time to write it all out. There is tons of support here. I KNOW you can do this, because I did and so many others did as well. I am sober 2 years now and my life has changed tremendously, all for the better!
I wanted to share that I too suffered from acute anxiety and was on several meds. None of the meds really helped until I gave up the alcohol. Today my anxiety has been replaced with a deep sense of peace and serenity. All is well in my world. I wish this for you
xo