Cool Dave! Glad you replied! We are not alone and thats all it takes sometimes. Makes me feel a whole lot better that somewhere out there somebody else knows what I am going through. Sorry to hear about your loss and boy, can I identify. Hang in there as the second 30 days were a bit better than the first 30! I guess the fact that we share this experience makes it less lonely!! Apart from that I know nothing anymore but maybe thats a good place to start. Good luck to you too my friend and a big thank you