I hear what your saying.I was sober for 9 and a half years.I did it when i was fairly young.One day all of a sudden i got this urge that something was missing and shortly after that my wife left for another man.I went for consol, but at the time i did,nt want to hear what they were saying they said and a lot of people said i was going threw a dry drunk.Like you its taken me 10 years to sudenly want to sober up again.Like you said its dam hard and lonely alot of times.I,m on my 36th day again i wish you the best of luck and if you come up with any advice on the lonely part i,m all ears thanks.