I tried doctors... go on talk!!!
I tried all sorts of pills, got even worse.
I tried seriously from 2012, then this year.... 9 days outside the market far far away & I go and find a camel.
I passed most Christmas overdoing it...
thought ok... never mind the 1st 2014 a total blackout and start clean again.
So I started the new year with my dressing gown on fire...
Does not even count 4 days as the anxiety and aggressiveness took over so started tapping benzo.
This morning in the hairdresser I walked in and with the speed of light I got two shots.
Then I putted myself in the right position to get free bees.
I did not even planned it...
my sub conscience took me there... like a zomby!
I am not joking!!! half of me did not know...
And the worse...
my head started talking in the background telling me nasty things... constantly... the paranoias started... What nasty things people say at my back,,,I cut communications... I upset my only healthy friends...
Instead of having fun out with my bran new hair cut...
I am stoned at home alone and bitter.
Then I say never mind I start tomorrow again
I keep on falling but feel each time I fall into a deeper sleep!
MY HEAD IS DRIVING ME MADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
I tried so hard time and time this never endssssssssssssssss