Originally Posted by
animalnurse9 
Is weird.but I feel like I'm praying for something really bad to happen while I'm drinking. Something so catastrophic that it would be impossible to continue.how awful and blasphemous is that
sounds normal to me.
if something bad were to happen to you - then you could no longer hide - you are shy - and you know that- youre body and mind know that - they want to help you help you - just like posting on FB - it is just you wanting to get help --- or at least wanting to want to get help ...