Yeah probably not for me either. I am a high bottom gal and I find that all the gritty stuff allows me to do a lot of bargaining with myself. I find myself saying "wow clearly I do not belong here," when in fact I do but given the fact my life is pretty much in tact (no career setbacks, financial down falls, brushes with the law, etc.) I have in both the past and present had my am I really prone to rationalizing my behavior.