"I consistently work the steps, steps 11,12."
its a 12 step program, not 2. "practice these principles in all out affairs." are you practicing the principles of ALL the steps?
have you taken the advise given in another thread of yours and went out into the community and volunteered?
i hope you are getting off antidepressants with your doctor having knowledge of it.
"Yes, there is a substitute and it is vastly more than that. It is a fellowship in Alcoholics Anonymous. There you will find release from care, boredom and worry. Your imagination will be fired. Life will mean something at last. The most satisfactory years of your existence lie ahead.