Kyrie you are not a loser, you are an alcoholic in a relapse.
I would suggest that you dump the rest of your booze and get some rest. Tomorrow, call your sponsor if you have one and get to a meeting. If possible a step meeting would be the best. Chances are that it will be on the first step.
Get some rest now and stop beating on yourself, it will not get you sober just hurt you some more.
Tomorrow is a brand new day.
hugs