Originally Posted by
LaTeeDa 
I believe I've said this to you before, but here goes again.
It's not about trusting *him*, it's about trusting *you*. When you get to that point, it really doesn't matter if if's genuine or not, because you will know if you can live with him--as he is--or not. The sooner you stop trying to figure out whether he's really sincere this time or not, and start figuring out what is acceptable to you and what is not, the sooner you will find the peace you seek.
L
And, I had to come back to this today and read it over and over and over. Thank you LTD, as usual, for putting it into words.
I'm all over the place because AH has actually been consistent in his behaviors again. Honestly, we've been getting along very well. He's even coming hiking with us and doing things that he's never made the effort to do before. Yet, there's a part of me that is cautious, on edge, and ready for the other shoe to drop. Until that feeling subsides, I will know to proceed with caution and to put my own recovery first always! Thanks again!!!