Your post breaks my heart because I remember exactly what that feels like. I don't have an off switch either and can't control myself once I start. I have my fair share of gross, humiliating stories. When I decided to quit drinking, I had to start by getting rid of my precious collection of barware, which I did with a heavy heart because I felt like I was breaking up with my culture. It felt like a tremendous loss at the time, but it cut a tie that held me back. Focus on what you will gain when you quit - you will get yourself back. That's worth more than all the cocktail glasses in the world!