Originally Posted by
BuffaloGal 
The best predictor of future behavior is past behavior, unless major changes have occurred.
I definitely agree with this.
I do not go to any meetings but I know I would benefit from them. I'm a very shy person and like to be a homebody.
I am also a recovering addict. I was addicted to opioids and went to meeting for a while and started their 12-steps but could not for the life of me get into it.
I have done a lot of reading and talking but it is still so hard.
I can forget things for a while but that's as far as it gets.
Many people have regained their trust in me and I'm grateful for that.
I don't know how they did it
Maybe I'm not supposed to have the people who I can't forgive and trust in my life and that's why I can't forgive or trust them.