Many of us drank/drugged for many years.
It takes a little time to learn to live sober.
Have no fear tho - you will celebrate, and feel joy, and have fun, and do and feel all those things that little voice in your head is telling you you'll never have again.
The voice is lying. I'm not
The early days require a little faith - but please do hang in there. You're doing the right thing.
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