Originally Posted by interrupted

Let's examine the things that we *know* right now: your husband is a liar, he is trying to make you think you are crazy, and he is having an affair. Take the drugs out of the picture, is this acceptable behavior to you? Is this what you want your marriage to look like?

You need to figure out what you want for yourself, what will make you you happy and healthy. Because you are the only piece of this whole puzzle over which you have any control. Do something good for yourself today, even if it's just something small, you deserve it.