Originally Posted by
LegallyBrunette 
What is so odd is if I am in a moment of being totally honest with myself I've known I had a problem for years. I just sort of avoided addressing it internally. Finally a number of things pushed me over the edge.
First I want to say I am glad you are here. This is a great support system.
Second, I understand. I was an alcoholic for years before I fell over the edge. I hid behind the functional alcoholic curtain for like....forever. I knew I was an alcoholic but honestly I did not want to do anything about it until I no longer had a choice because I was on the verge of not being able to function.
Hang in there. Take it one day at a time. Jump in and look around. There is a lot of information and support here.