Originally Posted by
LegallyBrunette 
II am just having such a hard time actually getting out there and engaging in recovery because this is not supposed to be happening to me. Thank you all very much.
WHY not? A huge part of recovery is acceptance, letting go of control we don't have! Most of us drank because of people, places and things issues.
Acceptance for me is I CAN'T drink in safety.
I know a fair number of attorneys and doctors who attend non public meetings of their peers which you should be able to find with a little sniffing. I personally don't care for them but they fulfill a need.
BE WELL