I have a similar story- how and when still echo in my brain 3 months later. Maybe years down the sobriety trail I'll figure it out, but truthfully it is less important now than it once was. All that really concerns me now is "one more day"
. I hope you grasp on to it as well. Addictions come in all types of people with all types of backgrounds and stories. What binds us as a family is the beast itself. Welcome to SR- dont let today be so scary- grab our hands and take a step toward a MUCH better life. Congrats on your beginning!!!!!!