I not only made it through Christmas day, but I actually enjoyed myself and feel very close to mom and sister, more so than in the years past when I was just playing a role and trying to get home to start drinking. they don't drink at all, dad was the only one whoever had a problem drinking and understood me in that place.
It was a good day and was worth some of the struggles I have been going through and has been the first time I have felt what living a "normal" life is like.