Don't worry about "long" posts, let out what you need to and use us guys to lean on for support!
The concept of "normal" is a myth, especially to us who are addicted, having 1 beer or 1 glass doesn't work, we need to have a case of beer or the whole bottle, and that is the problem, so abstaining is the only answer.
You showed great strength and courage to be honest with your mom.
Your right, Xmas is tough but you got through it, your NOT a loser, but rather someone who has now been pushing through and winning the daily battles for 38 Days! be very proud of yourself!!
