Hi Laly, good work on taking the step to admit here how things have become unmanageable. Looking back I too first made that confession on these boards, in the internet realm. Small baby steps was the only way I was able to move forward with the looming guilt and shame that I carried on my back like a sack of dead promises. Keep taking those baby steps forward, open up and be honest with yourself and those around you, and you can have a new world of opportunity.