If I have will power enough to go 36 days (I believe this is AV talking), shouldn't I be able to have will power to have 2 glasses and then switch to water so that I can take the edge of what has been a horrid day and enjoy myself OUT for the first time in months?
Don't fall for this like I used to for way too many years, Suekie
Don;t mistake abstinence for control.
It's not the same thing at all
If anything abstinence is, or should be, the recognition that we have no control over alcohol.
I'm sorry for your stressful day but the way to make things even more stressful would be to drink.
Resist - the satisfaction you'll feel by staying sober is immense, I promise
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