Originally Posted by
wantoliveagain 
Alone today.....
You've stated your reservations about going to an AA meeting just yet, but being alone in your condition can't be much better, and is probably much worse.
In many places, AA has 'alkathons' for Christmas, New Year's and other holidays. They typically start early on Christmas Eve, and then run late into the evening on Christmas Day.
I've been to a few over the years, including in early sobriety, and was always happy that I did. I'll probably stop by tomorrow. They're generally hour-long meetings throughout the day and night, and are not only for people who are alone or who have no place to go. A lot of folks go to extend their hands to people who are suffering through the holidays.
Don't even think about it. Just go. They won't turn you away because you don't blow numbers.